We Didn’t Start The Fire

December 27, 2011

The truth in the logo

So, once again Facebook has decided to implement some weird change to the layout and function of their social networking site. The “newsfeed” add on about a year ago was WAY too much for me. Facebook was bad enough when I had to search out people to stalk. Now, all I have to do is log on and I get more information about people than I ever cared or needed to know. I wonder why we continue to allow our lives to be front page news (literally). But I am guilty, like so many others, of posting pictures of my latest adventure or little things about my day like people actually cared what I thought about ANYTHING. There are many times I have debated deleting my Facebook and disconnecting that part of my world, but the sad part is that Facebook has become a legitimate way I keep in touch with people that I really do care about. Because without that I would be forced to exchange emails or call my friends to check on them more or (dare I say it) send a letter to a friend that is far away. It is sad that I sit and wonder sometimes how I would stay connected with what’s going on in Joe from college if I didn’t see his relationship status change on my newsfeed. When you stop and think about it, it’s kinda impersonal. But I digress.

The real purpose of this post was to compare a little ‘quiz’ I did almost 6 years ago with how I would answer now. I stumbled upon this while exploring Mark Zuckerberg’s newest change to the Facebook interface, Timeline. Yes, I know you wanted to know exactly who was writing on your high school boyfriend’s wall when you were in high school (if you had Facebook then…). Well, now you can go back to 2005 and catch up with your old Facebook posts. I feel like this is an add on that would mean more 5 or 10 years from now. Facebook isn’t really 10 years old and most of it’s recent success was in the last 5 years. I think everyone loves nostalgia, but I don’t really feel like 4 years ago is such a “blast from the past”. However, I guess it’s one of those ‘kinda cool things that I can explore now since I’m on break with nothing to do, but this time next week when school starts back I won’t give it a second thought’ things.

There I go on a tangent again…to the quiz! Enjoy! 🙂

The answers in parenthesis are my 2011 answers and my 2006 answers are not in parenthesis.
LAYER ONE: ON THE OUTSIDE
Name:
*** (It hasn’t changed and I’m not really giving away names on this blog. Sorry!)

Birthday:
Sept. 30

Current Location:
my living room (My bedroom, I forgot about the days before I had a laptop and our family computer was in the living room…)

Eye Color:
brown
Hair Color:
brown wit a little red

Righty or Lefty:
Righty

Zodiac Sign:
libra

LAYER TWO: ON THE INSIDE
Your fears:
losing the people i love and not being good enough (Well, I experienced some of both of these things in the years between 2006 and now. So I think my new fears are losing my empathy for people)

Your perfect pizza:
thick crust cheese, pepperoni, bacon like a meatlovers:Plol (Anything deep dish Chicago style–yup, i’ve crossed over the the dark side!)

Your current love:
God

LAYER THREE: TODAY

Your thoughts first waking up:
Back to school…aww..man:( (Christmas part two! Yay!)

Your best physical feature:
umm….i guess my smile (still is 🙂 )

Your bedtime:
um it depends on a lot of stuff (I am a grown woman–I do what I want. Which is usually in bed by 12)

Your most missed memory:
hangin wit my cuzs either in ATL or Chi-town and hangin wit my all my friends (A life without responsibilities…lol)

LAYER FOUR YOUR PICK:
Pepsi or Coke:
dr. pepper (or sprite)

McDonald’s or Burger King:
burger king (or Chik-fil-a)

Single or group dates:
both (single)

Adidas or Nike:
nike (sure…)

Lipton Tea or Nestea:
either (Southern sweet tea!)

Chocolate or vanilla:
I LOVE CHOCOLATE! but i like the smell of vanilla…(somethings never change)

LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?
Smoke:
nope (and it’s gonna stay that way)

Take a showers:
yep (and it’s gonna stay that way)

Think you’ve been in love:
yeah (not really, I have been pretty infatuated over the years, but not truly in love)

Believe in yourself:
yeah (got to!)

Like someone right now:
no (not entirely true…)

Tell your friends you love them:
yes…LOVE YOU ALL!:D (yes!)

LAYER SIX: IN THE PAST MONTH
Gone to the mall?
yep (check)

Been on stage:
umm…does chorus count? lol (does my school’s atrium count?)

Eaten Sushi:
nope…eww…nah (hahaha, yes! And loved it! So, I guess somethings do change…lol)

Been dumped:
nope (no)

Gone skating:
no(I WANT TO!:D) (i’m going this weekend! )

Dyed your hair:
nope (no)

Got asked out:
lol no (does to study count?)

LAYER SEVEN: HAVE YOU EVER:
Changed who you were with to fit in:
nope (unfortunately in the past, yes)

LAYER EIGHT: GETTING OLD:

Age you’re hoping to be married:
late 20’s (i guess we can still shoot for that…lol It might be more early 30s)

Age you hope you die?
whenever God wants to take me (yes)

Age you want to have kids:
late 20’s early 30’s (How about mid 30s?)

Name 2 things you want to do:
1. grow closer to God
2. live life to the fullest (yes to both!)

LAYER NINE: IN A GIRL/GUY:
Best eye color:
it doesn’t matter (same)

Best hair color:
dark (sure…it doesn’t really matter)

Clothing style:
whatever looks best on him (yes)

Serious or funny:
funny!!!!!! (yes)

LAYER TEN: WHAT WERE YOU DOING?
1 min. ago :
listenin to music like i am now…lol (Writing this post…)

1 hour ago:
at tha bank..(On Facebook…thus how this whole post came to be)

1 day ago:
goin to church (Celebrating Christmas with my family!)

2 years ago:
umm…doin stuff (I wish I could always be this specific! lol And I was Junior in college who knows what I was doing…)

LAYER ELEVEN: FINISH THE SENTENCE:
I love:
God, my parents, my grandma, all my family, and ALL MY WONDERMOUS FRIENDS!:D (I would agree except with the word “wondermous” and i would like to add that I still love my grandma even though she is no longer with me here on earth)

I don’t:
want to go to school tomorrow (I’ll be saying that a week from now…lol I don’t want this Christmas to end…)

I feel:
sleepy and tired (12:30 am…yeah, that sounds about right lol)

I hate:
fake and arrogant ppl…(amen, sista!)

I miss:
my family in chicago and atlanta, and my friends not here. (My grandma and my friends from HU and LUMC)
I need:
to do my pre-cal…uggh. (oh wow…I don’t miss those days. I need to order my book for my social justice class, pay my rent, wash clothes and pack, call my doctor about my bill, deposit money in the bank, etc. Welcome to adulthood 17 year-old me! lol)

I want:
to go to Africa right now!!!!!!!!! (travel the world)

I would like to go:
to Africa…good thing i am:D (If you couldn’t tell I was excited about this trip to Africa..as I should have been. I’m going to Haiti this summer, so I guess I want to go there.)

Goodnight!

ImageSo, this post a week thing was doomed before it started, but I am not going to give up on blogging. Even if it is only meant for once or twice a year, I will still keep a record of when the writing bug hits me and I have to answer.

I titled this post an REM song because I was online and bored and realized that the Mayan prediction of the end of the world or more accurately the Mayan calender resets a year from today (December 21, 2012). So, it has many people wondering if 2012 really will be the end of the world as we know it or just another end of the year as we know it. 2011 was a year of BIG change in my life. It was somewhat expected change, but I remember one of the first posts I made on this blog close to a year ago talked about the uncertainty within those changes. Graduating college, moving away from home, starting medical school, etc. This year was a big milestone in my life and I have really enjoyed it. But in someways, I felt like it was the end of the world as i knew it. For 4 years I had gone to a college in my hometown that i had lived in for the majority of my life with familiar faces that I have known for decades. And when I ended my journey here, everything changed. My world ended and a new life began. Now, I live in a new town and state and I go to a new school where I didn’t know anyone when I first started. I have new friends and growing new interests/hobbies. My world looks quite different from the way it looked a year ago today. The funny thing is that I knew it would, but I never knew how much. However, I am enjoying every moment of this new world that I am living in. And the good part about it not being the ‘doomsday’ type end of the world is that I can still revisit to the people and things that made up my old world and feel like it never ended.

So, what about 2012? Well, as far as expected changes I think I am settled for a least 3 and 1/2 more years. So, the big changes I saw in 2011 will not be a factor next year, but that doesn’t mean that I still won’t experience those good and bad UNexpected changes of life. And if in 2012 we see the true end of the world, then I don’t want to look back on the next 365 days with any regrets. I want to live, laugh, and love as much as I can. And if December 21, 2012 finds me at home (like I am now) with my family preparing to celebrate another glorious Christmas and brand New Year, I still don’t want to look back on 2012 with any regrets. I am sure school will get a little harder because I will be a second year and preparing for Boards, but I still want to live this year to the fullest like EVERY year that God has and will bless me to see in my lifetime. I hope we all can take that approach to this year whether it be the last one as we know it or not.

Merry Christmas and HAPPY HAPPY 2012!

100 Years

February 13, 2011

I am not doing very good at this post a week thing, but once my senior seminar is over I plan to worry less and enjoy life more. It has been a hectic, but wonderful first 5 weeks of school. For one, I can’t believe that it has been 5 weeks already. I am excited about the next chapter of life, but I am nervous about the future also. I guess that’s why today’s topic has struck me so post worthy. “What would i say to myself if i could go ten years into the past?” Well, I am going to answer that and take it a step further by writing to myself 10 years into the future as well.

So here we go:

Dear 11 year old me,
I know you are all excited about graduating 6th grade in a couple of months. It is a great
experience,but enjoy elementary while you can. Unfortunately, you will never have recess
again after this year.The people you thought were your friends will start to act weird
and mean because they think they are "cooler" that way. But don't do that.
Look around at the friends you have and cherish the ones who have always been there
because 10 years from now, they actually will still be there. So treat them better.
Don't take yourself too seriously and enjoy every experience you can.
Except don't try out for the Jr. High cheer leading team. You are better than that and
you are just going to get discouraged and make you feel bad about yourself.
Try focusing on your grades and schoolwork. 7th grade is going to be a little challenging,
so, work hard. You are going to medical school someday! You should probably start earlier
than I did caring about your grades. Oh, and don't quit piano.
You are just going to end up doing it off and on for the next 1o years
and retaking lessons at my age. So, I'm sure there are a lot of things I could tell you,
but somethings you need to experience so that you can become me.
However, the last advice I'll give you, young one, is
don't waste your time and energy on the jerks you will meet in the next 10 years.
I haven't found a special someone yet, but I hate the energy I spent caring about
some of the jokers you are about to meet. Believe me, love will come just be patient.
Well, I have to go. Enjoy life and every moment. Love God and love people.
Love,

21 year old me

Now, to the future:

Dear 31 year old me,
You have to understand how weird I feel writing to myself in the future. I have lots of questions and I would really love if you could write to yourself 10 years ago and let me know what is in store for the next 10 years. But I guess you are a doctor now and I hope that you are married, but if not that’s okay. And if you are married, do i have any children yet? I would assume that you would tell me some of the same things that I told my 11 year old self. About enjoying life and cherishing my real friends. There’s probably some more jokers in my future that I’ve wasted time on, but hopefully my broken road is leading us somewhere. I hope that I have kept in touch with my friends from college. I don’t know how much they mean to you, but they mean a lot to me right now. And I hope that the friends I made in medical school are good people. I hope that I am fluent in Spanish and I have been back to Africa at least once. (If not living there right now…) I hope that wherever I am, I am helping people through medicine and touching lives. I know that God is still a major part of my life and I hope that my parents are somewhere near. I guess my biggest hope is that you are a better person than I am today, but still down to earth,  fun loving, and hopeful. I hope that life has not beaten you to the point where I am none of those things 10 years from now. I believe that the best is yet to come for both us.
Please respond. Love God and love people. Stay true to us.
Sincerely,
21 year old me

Viva La Vida

January 29, 2011

Well, I almost missed a week already. A lot has happened this week and it has been hard to gather my thoughts to post. So, I am posting at 10:30 on (what some would say….) is the last day of the week. All through the week, I have seen the topic suggestions for each day and I always thought it would be nice to write something, but I haven’t had the time.

This week I had my last medical school interview and I absolutely fell in love with the school. The school is ten hours away from my hometown, but the school is everything I want: Fun people who are dedicated to service and medicine. I felt right at home and the facilities were GORGEOUS! It is weird, though, how I can be so decided yet undecided at the same time. I feel like the choice I make for medical school will direct the rest of my life either good or bad. I am so afraid of making the wrong choice that I was almost hoping that I would not get a choice at all. However, I am thankful that I did get a choice and I feel like I might have found the place I want to spend the next four years.

To respond to one of this week’s topics; Do you want to life forever? I would say not this life on Earth. I would like the eternal life the Bible speaks of with no more pain and sorrow. But this Earth is so horrible and sad at times that it would be depressing to life forever in it. However, I fully advocate living life to the fullest. That was something that was made clear to me as I visited my last medical school this week. I always thought that life would end when I get to medical school. But my idea of that is changing. The students I met were not dead (well, I didn’t meet any 3rd years…) and they really seemed to be enjoying life. I know medical school is difficult, but maybe it is not the kiss of death to my social life as I thought it would be. I don’t know if it is just this school or the future in general, but I am really excited about life. A concept that has been harder for me these past two years. Maybe one post I will spend talking about my wonderful grandmother, but her death had and still has an effect on me. Thankfully, time does heal some.

Along with being excited about life is not letting my last semester work block me from enjoying these people I will only be with for a short time. A theme I am sure you all are getting sick of hearing me say, but let that be a warning to you. Time passes quickly so if you are in college, high school, or just life in general, do NOT forget to love the people you are with. Because even if it is your spouse or parents that you think will be around forever, the truth is that they won’t. We do not live forever on this Earth. So, make the best of the life that you are given because you only have one life to live.

Good night and have a great week!

I talked in my last post about living life to the fullest. Well, part of that will be attempting to post every week with the Challenge for 2011 given by the WordPress staff. They also have a post a day challenge, but i knew that would be a little to ambitious for me (considering a week is going to be challenging enough once school starts back). Anyways, I thought I would share that with you.

Wish me luck!