ImageSo, this post a week thing was doomed before it started, but I am not going to give up on blogging. Even if it is only meant for once or twice a year, I will still keep a record of when the writing bug hits me and I have to answer.

I titled this post an REM song because I was online and bored and realized that the Mayan prediction of the end of the world or more accurately the Mayan calender resets a year from today (December 21, 2012). So, it has many people wondering if 2012 really will be the end of the world as we know it or just another end of the year as we know it. 2011 was a year of BIG change in my life. It was somewhat expected change, but I remember one of the first posts I made on this blog close to a year ago talked about the uncertainty within those changes. Graduating college, moving away from home, starting medical school, etc. This year was a big milestone in my life and I have really enjoyed it. But in someways, I felt like it was the end of the world as i knew it. For 4 years I had gone to a college in my hometown that i had lived in for the majority of my life with familiar faces that I have known for decades. And when I ended my journey here, everything changed. My world ended and a new life began. Now, I live in a new town and state and I go to a new school where I didn’t know anyone when I first started. I have new friends and growing new interests/hobbies. My world looks quite different from the way it looked a year ago today. The funny thing is that I knew it would, but I never knew how much. However, I am enjoying every moment of this new world that I am living in. And the good part about it not being the ‘doomsday’ type end of the world is that I can still revisit to the people and things that made up my old world and feel like it never ended.

So, what about 2012? Well, as far as expected changes I think I am settled for a least 3 and 1/2 more years. So, the big changes I saw in 2011 will not be a factor next year, but that doesn’t mean that I still won’t experience those good and bad UNexpected changes of life. And if in 2012 we see the true end of the world, then I don’t want to look back on the next 365 days with any regrets. I want to live, laugh, and love as much as I can. And if December 21, 2012 finds me at home (like I am now) with my family preparing to celebrate another glorious Christmas and brand New Year, I still don’t want to look back on 2012 with any regrets. I am sure school will get a little harder because I will be a second year and preparing for Boards, but I still want to live this year to the fullest like EVERY year that God has and will bless me to see in my lifetime. I hope we all can take that approach to this year whether it be the last one as we know it or not.

Merry Christmas and HAPPY HAPPY 2012!

Auld Lang Syne

January 1, 2011

Well, It is hard to believe that another year has passed and we have stepped into a brand new year. Like so many people, I have made resolutions on past new years that have for better or worse fallen by the wayside sometime during the hustle and bustle of the year. SO…this year i decided to try something different. I only have one resolution for the whole year. I am going to make a resolution to live my life. Now, i know what you are thinking: LaBi, that’s not a real resolution. Are not new year’s resolutions more specific like moving, losing weight, going on a trip, or finding that special someone? Well, my dear friends, my resolution can be ALL of that and more. My resolution is tied to only one thing: That God allows me to make it to December 31, 2011. If this happens, I will have kept my resolution.

The more I think about 2011, the more I see my life is going to change without me having to do very much except keep living. I am moving for medical school somewhere (as of now my only option is Memphis). I think every year since i hit puberty one of my resolutions was to lose weight. However, last year i said i would be healthy. Although I was not always perfect at this task, it was less pressure to live healthy and lose weight gradually than try to lose 50 pounds in one month with some dramatic lifestyle change. I feel that in order to live my life, I have to be healthy and losing weight will slowly come with that. I don’t know God’s plans, but I have been going on more trips this past year than i have in a long time. So far, I am planning to go St. Louis next week, West Coast sometime this summer, and my parents (not-so-secretly) have planned a graduation cruise for me out of the country! (I am really excited about that one!!) And like I said before, I do not know what God has planned.

Speaking of not knowing God’s plans, I have no idea about finding a “special” someone. I had a long heart-to-heart with one of my best friends last night/year about this subject. In our life circle, everyone we know our age and younger is getting seriously invovled with someone or married (evident by the fact I am writing this entry before and after my friend’s wedding at 5). So, to reach this point and not even have options is a little discouraging at times. However, the rest of the country believes the average marriage age is 26 and not 20 as it is in the “Harding Bubble”. Now, I have nothing against marriage. It is ordained by God, many of my friends and family are doing it, and I hope to do it someday. Nevertheless, I have never been a fan of anything being thrown in my face including something as sacred and wonderful as marriage. Yet I continually have moments where i wonder if it will ever happen for me. I don’t believe that 2011 will be the year i find my soul-mate, but I DO believe that if i live my life as myself someday I will find someone who wants to live life with me.

So, TO NEW YEAR’S:

“Another fresh new year is here . . .
Another year to live!
To banish worry, doubt, and fear,
To love and laugh and give!

This bright new year is given me
To live each day with zest . . .
To daily grow and try to be
My highest and my best!

I have the opportunity
Once more to right some wrongs,
To pray for peace, to plant a tree,
And sing more joyful songs!”

William Arthur Ward

Happy New Year!! Whatever your goals for 2011, I challenge you to live life to the fullest.

Uncharted

December 27, 2010

I am not the best at keeping up with journals and blogs. I usually start really well, but the motivation to write ends as mysteriously and quickly as it began. But as before, i only write when the inspiration hits me and time allows me. As i look forward to 2011, i see a lot of new things in my future. I feel that if i were ever going to start a “grown-up” blog, it should be now.
I struggled with what to name this blog and it might still change at any point in time. But for now, i chose lines from the Robert Frost poem “The Road Not Taken”. I feel that it somewhat sums up my life at this point. I am a unique, complex individual, but i hope you will get to know me through my blog. Upon receiving an acceptance to medical school late last week, i feel like my future is going to be an interesting and fun ride. So the “road less traveled by” is meant to be my life and hopefully it will make a difference to me and the world.

Let’s start this new year right.